depression+agony= fuck me
There are moments of anguish in which you can’t promise anything to the one who’s upset. Some people shouldn’t be allowed to make promises. This is how i actually proved to myself; i am totally capable to ruin my own promises.
This sounds a blessing to me, seems a heavenly tears drop from the sky. But ironically, i was cursed till the death. Every single step just weakening myself, justification lies through my head only bring closer to the root of hell. Can’t i hold just for a moment to stop myself from bursting into tears? I have made a sarcastic or dismissive post about this story of mine. I dont care if peeps call it poyo. fuck. Honestly, hypocrisy is not my attitude.
And the story begins…
God, my examination result was seriously bad. I cant believe how did my effort give nothing.
The consequences? My monthly allowance has been blocked. I have to add an extra credit hour. I have ashamed myself. No more money, shit no more joli sakan. How can i stop crying??? Yesterday Petronas has announced their new record profit reached RM61billion, so i hope they will increase my money pocket. But… Ubey keep on dreaming. Hope he realize his horrible mistake. U r fucking stupid, now u want an xtra money?
I feel like I’m riding the proverbial emotional roller-coaster, but after how sad and depressed I was yesterday I feel the need to laugh. Or at least attempt some humor. I keep telling this flesh n blood in order to support myself alone while i have so much fucking depression going on in my life.A couple days ago i read a cute amoi’s blog. She wrote about being slapped for getting bad result. Now i really understand what she felt actually. What happened to myself is not a physical grudge but i am worse either. This is not a justification that easily made. No hearing, no court, no judiciary, no lawyers. She is doing well after the case, however i will be haunted nightmare for the entire 6 months. and i am seriously at rock bottom. The worst, should i commit suicide?
I have to be strong to pursue my study in engineering field. Lecturer keep telling me, UTP is one of the toughest uni. Every year the Harvards’ scholars will come to observe my uni, flawless of unemployment fresh graduates, high standard, close relationship with giant oil company; Petronas, SHell, Halliburton, Schlumberger, blax3. FUCK. This is boring. Even myself not interested with this yada yada.
Sometimes i feel very down. Can i push myself to go further? I know i am stupid, so i have to change. demmit.. This is not a hereditary. this my own fault. so i hate myself
i can’t stand..
every drop of tears only bring me to the past days.
God…
Am I deserve these punishments?
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jont (1)
weh.. rilek la. jgn sedey2. tp sedap bi mu. copy wat essay blh A+ ni. haha
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salam…erm…jtuh bangun sebuah kehidupan,itukan pglamn…tnpa pglamn,kita akn jatuh buat kli k2 di tempat yg sme…jst b str0ng!..caiyok2…aja..aja…fighting!..d0 the best nxt tme..=)…insyallah..
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[stopa]- ni bukan bi writing, tp frankly speaking. rosak grammar.
[ratu salju]-hehe. tanx cikgu. insya allah. i will try harder next sem. tnsen je sket
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hye geng teman skandal ku!!
ubey.. ubeyyyyy..
dun give up lahh.. myb this sem kamuuu xdpt result yg lbey gempakk.. so?? hopefully next sem dpt nyeee.. wahh wahh!! jgn jadikan kegagalan lalu m’hantui drmu.. <– pesanan untuk drku jugakkk]]
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muahaha. tanx yuyu cap limau.
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cikgu ozawa di utp
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ozawa palo hotok mg.haha
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hahahaha….idup lagi ko..wes…bagi aku op sket
apo2 hal ley sumbang ko blog nih..
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gni. mg wat blog mg. aku ajar la sket2. br mg blh tnjuk kehebatan serta kekatangan mg
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bad result…huuu ubey, tabahla kamu sebelum kamu ditabahkan..lek la, life has ups and downs rite?ape kate cari kerje sampingan kat luar ke tambah pendapatan sare idopp.. k tak?
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hehe. tanx. ak still pasrah lg ni. sem lps byk main kot. money pocket ckup2 je, cume xley berjoli la. smpanan masih ckup utk hidup beberapa taun. nk cr kje pe cik neo. i ad kelas ni. klu nk tlg klik iklan nuffnang blh. haha.
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bebs banyak la ko nak suruh aku klik iklan nuffnang tuh..haram tu aku mengg-klik nyer..ape kate ko click nuffnang aku plak?mesti best kan ubey?hehehehe =p ala buatla bisnes jual topap ke, jual kuih ke, ha!!!!!!!!raye nak dekat ni, ape kate ko jual baju raye?=p
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haha. ak klik gak kot yg ko. bkn sme org ak klik k. hanya insan tertentu pada masa tertentu (mcm mse ak stranded alone td). erm.. jual bj rye. ak rase nk jual dvd cite la. ye x ye
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herm..life is lyk a cycle of a wheel..~a colors of life k..so,uv tried ur best thn let him do his job..we hv a vertical connction wit him..stand still by ur beliefs..;)))))))))i kno strong enuff,bro
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yes. but my attitude still on the same horizontal path. the truth is, how surrounding around me totally influenced myself . i won’t regret if i-must-to, but i am damn loser if i-cant-to either
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tenang je la.. abang i dlu pn utp gak. awal2 teruk la. lepas tu die ley score tinggi. sekarang kat keje shell
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tanx. rilex sudey kan. just study, n teruskan kehdupan cm bese. insya Allah aku akn wt yg tbaik. ^^
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shut the fuck up :twisted:
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